The Call

In the words of Marianne Williamson: "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Tuesday, September 17, 2002

Hanging Out in LALA Land

 September 17, 2002
 How goes life in San Clemente?

Good Morning Dear Ones!
Well, things have been a little more hectic than we planned. R & MJ sold the house in Tustin and needed odds and ends done per the inspection so Larry has been working on that and then the house and yard were not completely empty of stuff ......they still aren't but almost. Larry made a load from there yesterday. There is a bed and weights that must be donated. Guess we will call Good Will. The bunk bed must be torn down and Larry says it will be no easy task. They left it in Adams room hoping the new owners would want it because it is so hard to move. R & MJ departed on their honeymoon yesterday at 7AM and will be gone until October 16. Larry made the long drive to LAX alone because I would not fit in the Lexus. I don't think we own enough clothes to have filled all the luggage they took but then they are going to be gone for a month to an all inclusive resort. I think on the beach.... they won't need too many clothes? We are in charge of Tustin while they are away since escrow will close before they get back. We do the walkthrough on October 3.  Actually we are in charge of everything. There is still lots going on at the new house since they have thirty days to report everything that is wrong here. There have been tile men, painters, plumbers, they have torn out the hearth so the new 58" TV will fit along the side, appliance people etc. etc. Workmen show up and then leave before they are done or don't show up at all. Whew! So that is how it has gone with us since we arrived.

And then there is Adam .......he is easy to be with. He seems to really like his new school and teachers. Yes, they kept him back in 7th grade. They have a homework hotline at this school so we can call each week and listen to a recording of his homework assignments. He also has an "agenda" that must be checked each night. He and Larry are working on a weight lifting program. They bought a weight machine with 4 stations so 4 people can do the weight thing at once. Yes, it is very large. We are giving Adam cooking lessons at least once a week. He and Larry did chili beans last night. The 3 Aunts From France left last Friday so up until then it was dinner for 10 around here. That worked out pretty good since everyone shared the preparation, well sort of, R cooked one night and took everyone out one night. The aunts also cooked one night. It was just a lot of food to fix. The aunts were a riot. They cannot speak English and we all now speak a little french.

Anyway that is why you have not heard from us. Yesterday there was furniture delivered and lots of repairmen. Today there will be another furniture delivery and more repairmen, we hope. We actually have a calender where all of the appointments are written. Must be nice to go off and have all of your little headaches taken care of. We are also paying all of the bills while they are gone. They put $7000 in our account......wonder how many bills there are?!?!? We must go off and buy toilet tissue today. That seems to be the forgotten task around here. Paper towels yes, toilet tissue, no. Oh, well TP is pretty high on my priority list for personal hygiene.

We are trying to get into our own routine around these activities. I hope after this week things will slow down. We have found a loop that we can walk around Talega. It is more like a hike since there is lots of elevation changes. It is challenging. Well, that is pretty much all I know. Pretty boring, huh?
Much Love,

October 25, 2002
Greetings from LA LA Land!
How are things up north? We miss the trees and mountains and quiet.....the blessed quiet. We are definitely NOT southern California people but it does look like we may be here for awhile. We are so close to Pendleton that we can hear the bombs going off or whatever they do to practice way. I pretend it is thunder. The machine guns are a little more challenging but mostly it is the traffic. They are building 4500 homes in the area. Can you imagine all of the construction? Everyone on our street is having yards put in, cement poured, driveways torn out, etc. and up the street they are building. We have a 3 mile loop we hike each morning to maintain our sanity.

I cannot remember if I told you but when R & MJ left on their honeymoon everyone thought Adam was doing great in school but lo and behold we found out he was getting F's in Math, Science and Language Arts. That was one week into their month long trip. There was turmoil and chaos for a few days. We scheduled our days and took on the task of getting him back on track. It is too long to write about but he definitely has a learning challenge. His math teacher, who is really sweet, refers to it as spacing out. His body is present but his mind is somewhere else. We really believe that maybe this has something to do with his not dealing with his father's death and his mother's remarriage. The first week we were beating our heads against the wall and pulling our hair out and so was he. He just did not seem to be able to do the work. We could not keep him focused or on task. It is totally amazing. We have made remarkable progress in 4 weeks. His attutude and whole demeanor have changed and his grades have soared.

He is repeating the 7th grade and we all thought it would be easy. Because of the situation we have decided to stay for awhile. We want to see if we can get everyone on track, help Adam have a positive experience in school and maybe line up a tutor. We expect to have all of that in place by the first of the year.

We are challenged by making a space for ourselves in this world down here. A place where we can feel whole, healthy and productive. Today we are working at the library once again. The energy here is so much better than the house. I resented it at first but now I am finding that it is a blessing to come here. Another blessing is that we are only 2 miles from the ocean. Even though they have set up a work area for us in the new office and we should be on line soon at our desk it can be chaos.....phones ringing, people talking on the phones, etc. It is total chaos in their home office most days. We have learned a lot about what kind of environment we do best in.

The last few days we have wondered if we are only prolonging the inevitable.  I think when we leave everything will return to the way it was and they will finally send him to military school and we are thinking Adam might do better in a structured environment. We are thinking maybe he could find some mentors and people to champion him there. He would have a routine.

R & MJ returned from their honeymoon on the 16th. I am sure I could sell this family to reality TV and make a lot of money. I am certain it is better than the Osbornes. There are people going in every direction.... did you know that R's mom and brother live here, too. I now know that I was not meant to be part of the Waltons.... more like Thoreau. I need the peace and quiet and slowness of the woods and nature. I have only wanted to jump off of the second floor deck once but realized that except for Larry and Adam, no one would realize I was missing for several days.  Oh, well.  Tomorrow is my birthday. I have been on this adventure for 52 years.....well, as of tomorrow. Adam is going to Big Bear with one of his old buddies from his old  school and my gift to myself is that we are going off for a day alone. It will be quite wonderful. I have a spot picked out to park and stare out into space. It is by the ocean.

I love coming to the library. I love the energy there. We have to be real focused on what we must do since we each only have an hour each on the Internet. Today we are going to the Senior Center across the way for lunch. They have a live Jamaican steel band and they are serving "island food". We decided we needed to get out and meet some saner adults. Well, I just wanted to fill you in.

December 7, 2002
San Clemente, CA
Hello All,
Things started happening pretty fast this last week. It looks like my sister has found a good tutor, it is the son of a friend and R's mother,  is going to pitch in with Language arts. That was the first development. His mom is very smart when it comes to words. She is from France and takes great pride in being very fluent in English. I believe that will help her and Adam to bond.

The very exciting news is that we think we have found our rental in Gibsons, BC. It is a block from the little village and just above the marina. We will not have a view because we are on the upper side but it is a stepping stone to getting where we want to be. It is a one bedroom apartment and is $327 US and includes utilities. It belongs to a lovely couple that live in White Rock, BC. We have spoken on the phone and several times via email. They have several propertie in Gibsons and own a lovely B&B in White Rock. It is called Beachside Sausalito. We are falling in love with White Rock, which is only 5 minutes from the US. That is another possibility for our future.

We have not taken care of passports yet and will do that first thing on Monday. We just didn't except to be moving this fast. Yes, we are very excited. It is like our new van, I am afraid to believe. I keep having to remind myself to breath. I couldn't sleep last night. Love C

December 9, 2002
San Clemente, CA
Actually the news got better! They had a top floor flat become available. It is smaller but has a very nice view. It looks down on the marina and I believe off to the mountains in the distance. The owner told us it was a very cute apartment. The view is extremely important to our spirit and energy. There is no washer and dryer but what the heck. This is a month to month rental so will be our stepping stone to be where we want to be. It is also less money and still includes utilities and a fridge and stove. We are happy! We didn't make any progress with passports except photos. We have never needed passports when crossing the border but we were told that we should have them now. We must start thinking about what we will take north with us.
Much Love,